jangan menyerah

it happened when I was in calgary, canada earlier this year. I stayed at my brother's place. it was his last semester in a medical school there. heck, it was just a few days before his final exam. we were 'lepak'ing and jamming together. fyi, he doesn't really know how to strum the guitar the proper way but he kinda have a good voice. 

he said " tau lagu ni tak? "

" lagu apa pulak? " I answered as if we were playing a game 'jawab dengan soalan'

" lagu ni ha " he showed me the song on youtube

then he continued " lagu ni abanglong jadikan lagu pembakar semangat setiap hari. nak jadi doktor bukan satu benda senang. lagi-lagi kalau belajar kat luar negara. canada ni tak ramai orang MALAYSIA. kita kena pandai jaga diri tak kisahlah kat mana kita berada even kalau kat negara sendiri. setiap kali rasa nak terjatuh, 

just keep your head up,  

                      face the world and smile "

and I fell in love with the song 

Tak ada manusia

Yang terlahir sempurna

Jangan kau sesali

Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah

Dapatkan cobaan yang berat

Seakan hidup ini

Tak ada artinya lagi

Syukuri apa yang ada

Hidup adalah anugerah

Tetap jalani hidup ini

Melakukan yang terbaik

Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan

Kebesaran dan kuasanya

Bagi hambanya yang sabar

Dan tak kenal putus asa 

Jangan menyerah

i'll do it my way

the story goes like this, I was chosen to be the project director for this little event and they said its up to me on how I wanna do it, just that it must be cheap. and so it begins..

the preparation

I said, to save budget, let's do it at INTEC's (International Education Centre) Great Hall

feedback     : kami nak hotel

my reaction : I drove my parent's car all over shah alam, searched for the most cheap but high  quality hotel

I have found the cheapest but delicious food served at a hotel, but I want to make it a surprise

feedback     : tell us the menu

my reaction : that'll ruin the surprise

feedback     : oh yeah

the next day

feedback     : tell us the menu

my reaction : that'll ruin the surprise

feedback     : oh yeah

this continued for 2 weeks

feedback     : tell us the menu or we wouldn't come

my reaction : (well, the menu of course) 

feedback     : that's delicious! but thanks for ruining the surprise

my reaction : -_-

the dinner

we set up the venue 4 hours before the dinner. sadly, the VIPs couldn't come at the very last minute

I said, well, what to do, to make it more interesting, I wanna make it an informal dinner

feedback     : kau patutnya buat formally, kalau kitorang dulu, bla bla. baru best

my reaction : ....

the projecter suddenly broke and there were no sounds for the multimedia presentation

I said, the multimedia presentation is not important, it'll be just there for the guests to watch during eating whether they want to or not

feedback     : kau suka ambil mudah semua benda kan? kau mesti tak prepare apa apa langsung. kau mesti harapkan orang lain je buat kerja. tengok apa jadi sekarang?

my reaction : (become impatient but still under control) aku datang awal kau tau ke? jangan pakai cakap je.

feedback     : kau takleh buat macam ni. kalau kitorang dulu (again? -_-) waktu presentation, lampu semua tutup, semua orang tak makan, semua tengok presentation senyap-senyap

my reaction : (seriously I was about to explode but with a soft voice I said) sabarlah, lepas ni kitorang ada games and lucky draw. lagi best (with a ****ing fake smile)

and the dinner continued well with everybody enjoying all the foods, activities and games. there were lots of laughs and joy that night. i guess the dinner turned out well anyway

now, the real deal - kalau nak aku organize, aku buat cara aku la. kalau kau nak ikut cara kau, kau buat sendiri lah. aku tau, waktu korang dulu, mesti 'best gila'. muka aku serabut, muka pemalas, tak bermaksud aku tak ada tanggungjawab. jangan buat assumptions sendiri. aku tau apa aku perlu buat, I need your guidance, not instructions. you hear me? a wise man said to me the end result reflects our efforts, and at the end, everybody had a blast, now what do you think then? you messed up with the wrong guy this time. sebab bagi aku, apa aku kisah, aku just akan buat cara aku, so you just have to live with it

kediaman idaman

CENDANA

3 minit dari rumahku,

tepi pasar, 

tepi balai polis, 

tepi padang bola, 

hadapan surau, 

disediakan court futsal, 

disediakan court bola keranjang, 

ramai rakan seperjuangan, 

no girls

SEKSYEN 3

3 minit dari kolej kediaman yang disediakan kerajaan untukku,

keluarga tercinta 

i think the one and only reason for me to stay at home kinda overwrites all the reasons to stay at my college. but i feel its just wrong to stay at home when you have the chance to spend your time with the guys that will take the same exams as you do. plus, its just for a short 2 years. okay fine, not too short i guess. but still, i can always go back home whenever i want to. but then again, after that not-so-short period of time, with God's will, i'll be going to a place further. meaning no time for home at all.

so, which is more preferrable do you think? hmm?